Saturday, December 26, 2009

Home for the Holidays

This last little bit has been a time when home is very comforting with all that we are enduring in our lives. My husband's father has been battling cancer for the last little bit and on the twenty second of this month, his fight ended. Michael was there holding his hand telling him to rest peacefully. It's been an odd Christmas but one that we have made enjoyable for Taylor. Nothing seemed organized or prepared, but it all came together. We wrapped presents Christmas Eve with our hearts being very heavy, but we knew that's what Taylor's Opa would of wanted us to do. We spent Christmas day with my parents, which was very pleasant but it was a day that felt empty when we phoned Oma to wish her a Merry Christmas and Opa wasn't there to speak to.
I won't say it's been easy, he fought his aggressive lung cancer with all he could. It tore me apart to see what it had done to him. I can't understand why we allow something to take hold of our loved ones with us not being able to do anything but stand by and watch their pain and suffering. All that is comforting me is knowing he is at peace. Believe it or not the other day Taylor and I were travelling on our major highway when Taylor looked over and saw the most beautiful dog, one just like her Opa used to own. I told Taylor it was a sign, Prince was there to tell us that him and Opa were in Heaven together walking and playing. That sign was comforting to me and it was a way to let Taylor know that things would be better now for Opa, a way without pain and a way with those and that that he loved. I've learned alot this year from all that has gone on, but the one thing I have learned is that home and family will always be there and it's important to show them your love and share your love with them daily.


ScrappeeDiane said...

Nicely said. I too believe that dog was sign and I'm glad you could take comfort in it. Hugs and prayers to you and your family at this difficult time. Family is everything.

Teresa Hord said...

Your post made me cry. I am so sorry you lost someone so close to you. Time will heal your hearts. Hugs to your family.